How
Many More Years
Several years
ago I held a part-time job at a retirement community. This was not a home for
dementia or for anyone especially ill. It was just a place for elderly people
that were too weak to look after themselves. The home was nothing much to look
at; an old, plain, dilapidated building with coat upon coat of white paint that
cracked and wilted like a vase full of white roses that don’t get enough water.
The lobby, where relatives come to check-in was renovated a week before I began
working there. I can still smell the fresh lacquer. After the lobby, there was a deep hallway
lined with framed black and white portraits of nurses and caretakers of the
distant past. At the end of the hallway was an elevator that transported family
and staff to the inhabitants’ dwellings.
The first day
I met Robert was the first day I started. He was eighty-nine and always exuded
vibrancy in all manners, like the way he colorfully dressed seems to stick in
my mind now more than anything. A part of my job was laundry. During the
scheduled lunch hour for the seniors, I made my rounds to each room picking up
loads of musky clothing. First stop happened to be Robert’s. The room was tiny
with a twin bed near a small window. However, what caught my eye were the
stacks of vinyl records that overtook almost the entire living space. The
stacks covered the entire wall from floor to ceiling. I quickly forgot why I
was there and started to shuffle through these vinyl artifacts. They were not
in any order that was familiar to me. The records had post-it notes on them,
being labeled first kiss, first girl I danced with, Phillip born 1959, etc.
While
I was lost in the array of the racks of vinyl records, I failed to notice a man
that was in the doorway of the room. “Ahem!” I turned around in a jolt and saw
a short and stubby man no taller than what must have been 5’2”.
“My boy! What
do ya think you’re doin’ boy? What’s your name?”
I quietly
responded, “Arthur, sir.”
He approached me and snatched a record
I forgot I had picked up. He looked at the record, which was labeled Phillip born 1959. Robert slipped the record out of the sleeve
casing, blew the dust off of it, and placed it on his record player. With his
wrinkled hand, he smoothly lifted the needle and placed it gently on a precise
groove of the vinyl surface.
“Ah, Howlin’
Wolf. You know boy, that this year was very important. This was the record I
was playin’ when the Lord decided it was time for my first-born to come into
this world.”
He closed his eyes and started humming to the
song, “How Many More Years”.
As I stood
there in the midst of his recollection I felt an immediate connection. I shut
my eyes while his gentle voice guided me. He continued picking out a few more
records and gave me a vivid and detailed picture of his memories. Some were
happy, some were sad, and some were downright hilarious. Robert was always full
of life in retelling his past, even when he was going over the more somber
parts of his life.
“How about
this one?” I handed over a Miles Davis vinyl.
“Ah. Kind of
Blue. I haven’t listened to this since…” He paused for a moment.
“…Since I last
talked to my daughter. Her name is Irene. Haven’t seen her for
five years.”
Robert slipped the vinyl out and placed it in the record player.
The vinyl began spinning and out of it
came a soft piano accompanied by a calm cello. A sharp trumpet abruptly pierced
through the sonic waves that the piano and cello carefully constructed.
“The
last thing she said to me was that I had no place in her heart.”
The
high-pitched trumpet continued to set the harmonic pace until it dissipated and
gave it back to the piano and cello.
“She
told me I was already dead to her.”
Just as soon as the piano and cello
were finally getting it back to how it started a saxophone took over which
seemed to shift the harmonic rhythm.
“I’ve
made mistakes, too many to count, I know that boy,”
The saxophone began to dwindle into
obscurity, where the trumpet reemerged, challenging the piano to keep up.
“I’m
a lonely old fool, with nothin’ but my memories.”
The tempo began slowing and the sounds became
dissonant. The piano soloed out the piece in a plaintive tone that made me
inexplicably shiver.
~
This continued
throughout the week. By the end of the week, at the scheduled lunch hour, I
hastily made my way toward Robert’s room. I cracked the door open and saw him
sitting at the edge of his bed with a bewildered expression upon his face. He
noticed me standing in the doorway and gestured me to come in.
“There’s not
enough time. Not enough time.”
I saw an open notebook on the bed
beside him and noticed what looked like estimates in very careful handwriting.
“Ah boy, I did
the math. I figure I don’t have much time left so I started to go on figurin’
how long it would take to listen to my records again. I just don’t have time
boy. Even if I listened to all my records back to back staying up all night and
day, I just won’t have time to listen to all my memories.”
I studied his calculations and inwardly
agreed as I placed my hand on his shoulder in a comforting manner. I stood
there thinking of all the songs he had yet to listen to; each song with its
packet of memory allowing him to relive with pure emotion, his loved ones and
happier moments of his life. He was right. He did not have the time.
We stood there
in silence for several minutes until Robert snapped us out of our contemplative
state.
“Ah the hell
with it boy! I better get started! Pick one we haven’t listened to yet!” He
began to tell a story, but with a disheartened tone.
~
He never
brought it up again. Things continued just as normal where he would reveal to
me his wealth of experiences for about four months until Robert passed away
peacefully in his sleep. The day we found him Robert had the Howlin’ Wolf
record placed on his record player with the needle skipping from needing to be
flipped to side two. My shaky hand lifted the needle and placed it unsteadily
on a groove. As “I’m Leavin’ You” started playing I picked up the casing of the
album and noticed an extra added post-it labeled, first time I met my friend, Arthur.
